am i dying???

am i dying??? this was the question occured to me when i was rushed to hospital last april 21, we were supposed to go to sss to file my maternity benefit but i suddenly felt shortness of breathing. at the hospital, i was diagnosed to have swollen veins in my ribs, i dunno the terminology but that was my understanding from the doctor when he's talking to papa bear. while i was in pain and had to wear oxygen mask i saw baby bear trying to reach my hand and gave me some comfort, my heart was really beating fast, i'm hanging on for my dear life. i'm not yet ready to die - kawawa naman si baby bear, more so the little peanuts inside my tummy, i know she/he's in pain too.

i'm crying silently, praying that God would spare my life, i saw from my side that baby bear is praying too, di ko pa kayang mawala. doctor still need to do some series of test with me, but unfortunately, there are limited medicines that i could take. buti na lang after 3 hours or so, medyo umayos na ang hinga ko, until now, i still feel that my ribs are still swollen. di ko lam how did it happen. still feeling occasional breathing difficulties.

my blood sugar is controlled, my peak reading is at 140 and i could be as low as 80, my ecg result is also fine, until now di pa rin malinaw sa akin kung ano ba talaga sakit ko. sana lang wag na lumala, i need to be healthy for my family esp for the baby in my tummy, she/he is still young 26 weeks old.

on saturday, i will undergo series of blood test and 4d ultrasound to check my baby's condition, malalaman na rin namin ang gender, i hope all is well for us.

to all my blogging friends and those who are reading my blog, please pray for my health and the baby. May the good Lord bless our lives. salamat sa prayers.

april 2 announcement

the place where i invest 10 years of my time is closing soon - the announcement made last april 2 by the corporate management has brought mixed emotion to the employees - some were happy, others were sad. happy in a way that our stay here no matter how long and short will be well compensated. the incentive package is very attractive, enough to start a new beginning.

i was a girl when i joined this company, became a woman, now a mother - i too, have mixed emotion, i'm sad because i truly loved this company, i've gained so much knowledge, been to a lot of places and able to meet people in different races - 10 years of stay is still short for me, i want to stay longer. i've been receiving offers to other sites, but i'm still not decided yet -have to balance between my family's welfare and my career. other sites, esp asian sites will radically change our lives, the culture and the language barriers that we need to overcome. i'm praying that we will be transferred to a more westernized site wherein we only need little adjustment except for the seasons. i'm leaving it all to our Heavenly Father - may Thy will be done.

i'm sad too that phil govt has made no action to further hold presence of this company in the country - this will add on to the numbers of jobless individual in the phils, not just former employees but our suppliers as well, they too need to reduce headcounts to balance the operating cost. most of our local suppliers relied 40% of their business to our company. this will definitely contribute to the poverty line of our population. if only i could do something...

belly dancer at dooby's grill cafe

memorable dinner with az team

my vegas trip

in front of bellagio hotel

fireworks display at bellagio hotel

statue of liberty in vegas

at mandalay bay where pacquiao held his recent match

our weekend escapades - picture taken after our strip outlet shopping...

free fruits and drinks at the c cafeterias

beginning april cafeterias here from c2 to c7 are free, whereas free fruits are still flowing at all lobbies. sarap sana dito, kaso lang i miss my family so much, lalo na si baby bear, she's counting the day when i will be back.

di na makuha sa shopping ang boredom ko, kahit na ang black angus steak di kayang pawiin ang lungkot ko dito - i wanna be back home soon...

i will surely miss tjmax, nordstorm, ross, costco, frys, walmart and in and out burger, pati na rin ang sees candies sa fashion center, pero walang tatalo sa pag ka miss ko sa mag-ama ko. this is an eye opener for me na, i could never be an ofw, ang hirap pala.