typhoon ondoy and some life's update

i'm back, it's been a while since my last posting, sobrang busy sa mga household chores. ang hirap pala talagang maging "housewife" parang 24x7 ang duty (he he he). ang mga housemaid ko kasi come and go sila, wala pa akong makitang trustworthy. hindi ko rin ma focus ang paghahanap ng work kasi worried ako kung kanino ko iiwan si bunso.

daming realities sa amin ng bagyong ondoy, walang mahirap at mayaman when typhoon strikes. ilang malalaking village sa amin, until now waist deep pa rin ang mga bahay nila, halos wala silang naisalbang gamit, yung mga sasakyan, sira lahat. nakaka trauma talaga. pero the good side of it, nakita ko rin, ang true meaning ng bayanihan, mapa artista o ordinaryong tao ka man, lalabas at lalabas ang pagiging bayani sa panahon ng pangangailangan. i'm proud to be a filipino, kasi kahit anong bagyo ang danasin, nakakangiti pa rin. at ganon ko rin na realized na there are a lot of kindhearted people who are always there to help, ang bilis ng flow ng mga cash donations sa abs at gma, in a week halos naka 100M na ang dalawang network. gusto gusto ko sanang mag volunteer sa scout bayoran para mag pack ng relief goods, wala lang talaga akong oras. naalala ko tuloy kung open pa ang company namin, i'm sure magpapadala yun ng donations at volunteers sa qc.

thank God walang masamang nangyari sa amin, ako lang kasi ang kasama ng mga kids sa bahay si papa bear eh na stranded sa pavillion the whole night, sobrang taas na kasi ng baha sa mamplasan, ako naman i'm very much worried kasi sobrang lakas ng current sa creek na malapit sa entrance ng village namin, iniisip ko paano ko bubuhatin ang mga gamit sa sala, in case na tumaas ang tubig, buti na lang medyo mataas yung area namin di na inabot ng tubig. pero ngayon halos knee deep pa rin sa main entrance ng village kaya ang mga car di pa rin maipasok dito, kung saan saan na lang ipi na park ng mga taga rito ang sasakyan nila. apaw rin kasi ang laguna de bay.

i am thankful dear Lord for everything, for keeping my community safe, for bringing out the best in us, i was able to witnessed how helpfull the filipinos are. thank you for another year, i almost forgot to celebrate my birthday last oct 3, because we are worrying too much on typhoon pepeng, thank you so much that You didn't allow it to landfall, it stayed in the pacific ocean all through out. i thank you for all the blessings and for helping me do my share to help others. all these i prayed in Jesus name, Amen!

1 year old na si bunso

whoa! sobrang tagal kong di naka blog, di ko kasi maalala ang password ko he he he pati rin sa gmail account ko, di ko tuloy maopen ang mails.

recently, Justin had a blast, we had a simple celebration at home last July 5, joined by relatives and friends. nag, pa cater na lang kami, di ako nag attempt magluto at baka pumalpak lang, sanay ako sa konti lang ang lulutuin. everything went well naman, kahit sobrang lakas ng ulan, di natuloy ang games for the kids, kasi outdoor yung na prepare namin na program. sobrang thankful ako sa mga nagpunta, sa mga in laws ko na sa Cavite at Marikina pa nanggaling, salamat po at napasaya ninyo kami.

Ate will also celebrate her 7th bday on July 28, the party will be held on July 26 at Robinson's place, we initially plan a swimming party, but since, rainy season na, baka masayang lang ang rent sa pool, so she decided to have a jollibee party instead. pero napansin ko lang iba na ang mga kids ngayon, when we asked her kung ano ang gusto niyang gift, PC ang hiningi, so yung na save namin na budget for the party, naibili ng HP Pavillion core 2 duo.

btw, here's justin latest pics, ang laki na ng baby namin.

i'm back

grabe, almost 2 months kaming walang internet, ngayon lang dumating ang technician to replace our broadband antenna, i missed my blogging world and my virtual friends.

some life's update: eto i'm a full time mom, since May 1, di pa rin naman ako naghahanap ng work, i'm enjoying being a hands-on mom, although minsan sobrang hirap talaga, wala na kasi kaming helper at yaya, to save cost, wala rin naman akong makuhang trusted nannies at efficient helper. i hope we can find one soon, para maka concentrate na rin ako sa paghahanap ng work.

i'm still waking up early, nasanay ako sa routine ko noon, i missed the corporate world, esp the late night meetings, my regular 1:1 with my boss, my vf peers, my office cube and most esp the salary he he he...

i hope i could land a job, the soonest possible time, dami pa kasi naming financial obligations, di pa namin fully owned itong house and of course our daily expenses.

btw, justin is now 10 months old, super kulit at likot, he can now say some words like "dada", "tita", ate" and "tatay", parang mas madali sa kanyang i pronounce ang letter "t" ang mommy di pa niya kayang sabihin.

baby bear naman has gained some weight, mukhang inenjoy ang kusina while i'm here, ha ha ha...

si papa bear, buti naman ok na ang company nila, tumataas na ang volume at inalis na rin ang mandatory time off na no work no pay, mukhang di na siya nag wo worry na magkaroon ng retrenchment sa kanila. Thank God!

"AHA" moment - " do not tarry! move on"

i'd been busy these past 2 weeks attending on site trainings thru drake beam & morin (dbm), and had lot's of self realization they called it " AHA" moments. i learned that what i feel right now, like anger, anxiety, fear and insecurities are just normal part of transition cycle, i am still in between endings and exploration stage, hopefully i could past through this on a short period of time so that i could start a new. it's hard to come out on my shell, i had been on my comfort zone for 11 years.

on the other hand, i also learned the concept of "ME unlimited", wherein i came to realized that i can do a lot of things, opportunities are not limited, i just need to be resourceful and creative. soon, i'll be leaving this company, but i will bring home all the memories, the learnings & experiences, friendships and lot a more to help me cope up with the real world.

please stay tune, dear blogging friends, i will be updating my blog more often while working on with some opportunities - might be working for others (employment) or working for myself (business), no decision yet, will have to weigh all the criteria before coming up with a conclusion. please pray for me to be guided by the Holy Spirit so that i could make the right choice.

lazy moment

i have been super lazy updating my own blog due to couple of reasons:

• been busy at work as usual due to some EOL activity as we are closing. the closer we get to the lights off, the more we are swamped with tons of loads - whoaahhh!
• yaya dilemma - this is not resolve yet, our second yaya has made us php16k poorer on the telephone bill last month, by the time we've found out she's gone! she was replaced by her sister to at least pay the bills in exchange of her service, but we can't really depend on her, we are always uncertain whether she will show up for the day or not as she is not staying with us. most of the time she's not, hence papa bear is always absent on his work, it is so annoying. we are trying to find one, but to no avail.
• finances - with the current global crisis, we are on crunch time - most of the companies are imposing mandatory time off, hence papa bear was also impacted by the policy "no work, no pay" he had used all his remaining leaves for this quarter, thus ending up with a tight budget to spend with vs the increasing bills, phone, electricity, lpg, internet, grocery stuff etc... hai...i know we can survive, konting higpit lang ng sinturon.. everything will be fine with us.

but i can say life is good still, i have been blessed with all of the good stuff, family is healthy, i am surrounded by good friends, baby bear is doing great at school, she's 3rd honor in the class. i have so many things to be thankful to, God is continually blessings us with all of these, sorry Lord if sometimes i am not seeing what i have instead i'm looking on what i don't have... this is one weakness i have to overcome.

for all my friends out there, pls help us pray find a better nanny, at least better than what we have right now.

not a good start for 2009

it took me along while to decide on whether to post this entry, pero naiisip ko sige na nga, medyo negative kasi.

life has been hard for us these past few weeks:

• yaya dilemma - before the end of the year, nagpaalam ang yaya na she needs to attend her sister's wedding in Zamboanga on Jan 8, umalis ng Jan 5, nag-advance ng salary for the month, ang paalam, she will just be gone for a couple of days be back on Jan 15. nagtaka ako ng umalis ng jan 5, dala ang maleta sabi lumang damit daw, ipapamigay na sa probinsya, so fine di ako nag-isip ng masama. the following day, me nakapagsabi sa akin, na andon lang sa kabilang blocks, namasukan, shocks, sobrang kakainis, pakitaan mo ng maganda, pakisamahan mo ng maayos, ganon din, lolokohin ka rin. bottom line, nabawi ko naman yung inadvance niya. and on the brighter side, sobrang torture pala ng inabot ng baby ko sa kanya, very recent ko lang nalaman na ang lakas palang manigarilyo, kaya pala di nawawalan ng sipon at ubo si Justin eh ganon pala, tapos para di namin mahalata pinapaliguan sa hapon ang baby para nga naman pagdating ko malinis at mabango ang bata. buti na nga lang umalis na rin siya.

• everyone in the family got sick (viral illness) - it started with baby bear, 3 days di nakapasok, 5 days na on and off ang fever, after a week kami naman ni Justin sabay, halos di ako makabangon, sobrang nahirapan akong huminga, nagka rashes din kami, akala ko dengue na, buti na lang normal lahat ng lab test namin. di din nakakapasok si papa bear, kasi wala kaming helper sa bahay, me sakit pa kaming tatlo, sobrang na miss ko tuloy ang sister ko na nasa kuwait ngayon. in times like this siya ang lagi kong nasasandalan.

• my last day in the office will be on april 30, yesterday nag-announce na sa amin na we will be closing, together with other factories in penang malaysia and 2 fabs in the US, sinabay pa sa inaguration ni obama, oh di ba memorable ang announcement sa amin. it's confirm jobless na kami after april 30. on the other hand, good news na rin sa akin kasi, plano ko na talagang mag resign dahil sa yaya issue, at least kung full time mom ako, maaalagaan ko na silang lahat. at the same time, we can save some cost on unnecessary expenses for having a helper.

how are we surviving? eto palitan kami ng absent ni papa bear para mag-alaga kay Justin, most of the time i'm working from home, buti na rin lang mabait boss ko, i was allowed to work from home 2-3 times per week. iniisip ko na lang everything happens for a reason para rin maging mabilis ang acceptance ko sa mga nagiging pagbabago sa worklife ko. senya na rin at taglish ang post, mas feel kong mag-express ng emotions sa tagalog.