one great opportunity

i had an early conversation through IM with my boss today, and he announced one great opportunity for my career - but the trade off is to migrate in Shanghai. living in China will not be easy more so that we have to consider a lot of things like papa bear's job here, baby bear's schooling, my father, my sibling and nephews. all of these are part of the factors that i have to weigh and consider. i have to mull things over - this maybe one big decision in my life that i would have to make. i've never made one such as big as this - this will change our lives.

i thought i would have a grandest vacation as i'm planning to be away from my work for two weeks, but with the news i've learned today, this will change all the planning and preparation i have in my mind.

life is really beautiful, while i'm busy planning and preparing, God has other plans for me pala. blessings are continuously and abundantly coming to me, sometimes im thinking if i really deserve all of these - God is really good to us!

i'm back

after a week of business trip, at last i'm home, tuwang tuwa ako on my way back to manila, yung connecting flight ko via kuala lumpur halos 90% pinoy ang kasabay ko, mostly ofw, ang kulit, nakailang reminder ang crew to remain seated while the seatbelt sign is on, di masaway, yung katabi ko mayat maya tinitingnan yung hand carry niya, binibilang siguro ang pasalubong niya para sa pamilya - everyone is so excited to be back. nakakarelate ako sa kanila - ako nga 1 week lang nalalayo sa pamilya ko, ganon din feeling ko, super excited tuwing pauwi.

i arrived 4:30pm, siyempre maaga pa, dami pang time to shop - nag aya si baby bear sa duty free, kakagulat ang haba ng pila sa duty free bago makakuha ng purchase card, pang 994 ako, nakakain na kami sa kenny rogers sa loob, di pa rin tinatawag yung number ko, buti naman bukas pala ang fiesta mall until 2am. as usual puro chocolates at cookies ang pinabili ni baby bear, yung chocolates daw ang christmas gifts niya sa classmates and teacher niya - tomorrow ang party nila kaya mamayang gabi babalutin ko pa yung mga chocolates.

yung mga wishlist ni baby bear nabili ko lahat sa KL, pero yung perfume ni papa bear di ko nabili sayang naubusan na ako ng dollars kasi nag excess baggage ako, ang mahal ng binayaran ko - di bale ihahabol ko na lang ang pamimili within this week.

dinner at bali hai

last night we had sumptous sea food feast at bali hai near gurney with the filipino workers here, we ordered sweet and sour fish, lobster and oysters. we had a great time - siyempre pa, walang humpay na kwentuhan.

i still haven't had the chance to shop around, later today i will - as i still need to find watch and psp games i promised to baby bear. as i talked to baby bear, bilang na bilang niya ang araw ng pag-uwi ko, lalo ko tuloy na miss ang anak ko.

ok naman ang feeling ko since i arrived here, no morning sickness though my blood sugar is still rising, dinadaan ko na lang sa insulin. i missed everyone, di ko masyadong feel ang spirit of Christmas dito - mixed kasi ang tao dito, 20% lang ata ang Christian. kalungkot tuloy....

long and tiring flight

my flight was delayed for two hours - i'm too tired to blog, arrived barely 2am this morning, feel very sleepy in the office today sigh...

this trip has given me some key learnings like -looking for ATM's once landed, to avoid any inconveniences of not having any cash on hand, always be attentive on the announcement whether it's been said on their local dialect, when in doubt, don't be afraid to ASK!

i'll blog more once i get enough sleep.

travel

all is set for my travel this weekend except for some personal stuff that i still need to buy, hopefully i will have a safe and smooth flight with my current condition. my OB has increased frequency and dosage of my insulin intake - from 5 units once per day, now it's thrice per day - mixed insulin total of 30 units since my blood sugar is quite high than my normal reading prior to my pregnancy.

this will be the first time that i'm travelling pregnant, hope i could have a comfortable seat as the airlines doesn't have an on line check-in. it is also my 1st time to use malaysian airlines instead of SQ. i hope too that airport staff will not hold me for bringing stuff like needles, syringe and alcohol in my hand carry as i need to inject thrice per day 30 mins before each meal, though i have an endo certificate with me.

it's quite cold na, we can feel the air of christmas - everyone is busy buying gifts and listing notes on what to cook for noche buena, parties are held every where. we will have our family party on the 22nd, i'm sure it will be fun (dami ko ng na prepare na prizes for the games) excited na ang lahat.

morning sickness

luckily am not having any morning sickness since day 1 that i've learned i'm pregnant - hope this will last until end of my 1s trimester as nutirients is essential for fetus growth. no cravings for any particular foods except that i have less appetite for rice, i am more on wheat bread and pasta. our fridge has lots of fruits and vegetables - papa bear is truly spoiling me by asking daily on what i wanted to eat. -(sarap talaga ng buntis :D)

napansin ko lang, this past few weeks, i'm fond of wearing make-up which i seldom done before. does this mean anything? boy kaya or girl uli?

on the other hand, baby bear is starting to show some maturity - masinop na siya sa toys niya, she even safekeep those new toys papa bear bought for her, she told us, she'll give it to her sibling. excited na maging "ate", she even disclose the news to her classmates and teacher. masayang masaya siya. life is beautiful and i really thanked God for this early Christmas gift to us.

fear factor

prior of having been diagnosed as type 2 diabetis mellitus - my greatest fears are blood and needles - which i tried to overcome during my CS delivery for baby bear but to no avail. now i can say that i have totally overcome this fear as i need to undergo series of painful needle testing and insulin for the succeeding 3 trimesters of my pregnancy. i never imagined myself that i could do all these by myself - am fricking my fingers for glucose monitoring evey 3 hours and a daily dose of insulin to keep my blood sugar in normal level. nine months will not be long just to ensure the little creature inside me will grow healthy and safe - i'll just enjoy every moment of it.

i also had seen dietitian last night and provided me a copy of meal guidelines to help maintain healthy blood glucose levels while providing adequate nutrition for my baby. was advised to eat smaller and more frequent meals - 3 meals and 3 snacks and no concentrated sugar (good bye sweet tooth!)

anmum and glucerna SR are good substitute for my 'sweet cravings" as both has creamy taste - this will be my official drink until July. sigh...

new blessing in the family

the news that my OB said to me didn't sink in into my mind until today that i got back to work.i was in asian hospital yesterday for my quarterly check-up and discuss with my endocrinologist that my period has been delayed for 10 days, i thought it was just the effect of some medicines for diabetis she prescribed for me -after series of blood and urine test yesterday; tadaa!! i'm already a month pregnant.

it was indeed a good news for us but i have lot's of anxieties though because of my diabetis. all of my oral medication had to stop, hence i wll be into daily insulin for succeeding nine months to control my blood sugar. this will be quite painful, but i have to do it to ensure the wellness of my pregnancy - i need prayers from realtives and friends that my condition will get better and controlled until my delivery. i also pray for my baby that he/she will be very healthy to surpass all of these. this i prayed in Jesus name - Amen!

biz travel

my december biz travel was pushed out to ww51 (dec 16-22)instead of 1st week of december, conflict with our family christmas party, so our plan is to either held it earlier than dec 15 or maybe dec 24 na lang, kaya lang my father wants to celebrate christmas eve on our house in cavite, while us (bear's family) want's to celebrate our 1st christmas in our new house in laguna, (bahala na si batman)

excited uli ako sa travel na ito, kasi i can have time to shop alone, (gifts for baby bear and papa bear), i can't do this here, since they are always with me, mawawala ang element of surprise. i can't also blog what i would like to give them, i know papa bear is reading this blog.

gotta go...

diet mode

i'm on a diet mode since the past 2 weeks ( bakit ngayon lang he he he) i must try hard else baka magmukha akong suman sa gown ko. i received invite from a wedding of my close friend in ateneo last month, dec 1 yung wedding and strictly formal ang attire. it will be held in santuario de forbes and reception will follow at manila pen ballroom, some sort of a reunion too because of our classmates and some close profs will be there. dahil kuripot ako, i will not buy a new dress, will just use the one i wore in my grad day last year - sana kasya pa *wink*

diet diet diet... i tried slimming tea grabe (i'm having diarrhea na ata,) daily abs and jogging (hirap)! sigh...

i was very mad today

i was very mad today, i felt betrayed by some friends in the workplace, whom i thought were the ones who are real - hindi pala. bakit kaya ganon? sometimes yuing mga taong close sa iyo, yun pa ang sisira sa iyo. hindi ko na i-blog kung ano ang nangyari, masyadong negative. pero blessing in disguise na rin, because of this situation i was able to see the difference, from being friends vs. just acquaintance. life is too short to dwell on anger, bitterness and pain, pero ipokrita ako if i will not tell na talagang i was very affected with what i heard today.

i'm trying to forgive people who caused me pain and anger today, but i just can't do it - hoping tomorrow will be another day, sana... maitulog ko ito ng maayos.

being hurt is something we can't control from happening, but being miserable is always our choice, ito ang natutunan ko ngayong araw na ito. to let go of this anger... sana makuha sa ice cream at masarap na dinner.

exam result

w'eve got baby bear's exam result yesterday our effort has paid off, she got 2 perfect exams out of 5 the lowlights though, was she got mark lower than 90% on reading - (89% to be exact) last time, she also got 2 perfect grades out of 5, her lowest was 93%. i guess, i was too hard on baby bear by expecting too much on academic where she should be playing and enjoying her time. tsk tsk - (bad mommy)! promise di ko na siya papagurin sa review. to make up with her, will be spending weekend in ATC where she likes to play at timezone, anyway my reunion with my old friends is still at 6pm, we can have the whole day playing and eating (sarap ng pesto sa italianis).

hk food trip

short blog from our quick weekend trip to hk where we treated ourselves to some happy shopping and eating. while the shopping was excellent, the food was what i was truly after, effortless eating where the dishes and snack stands found us, instead of us stressfully marking maps and trekking roads to seek out restaurants we'd read about on the internet. here is the quick glimpse of our weekend escapade:the hotel's free breakfast offerings were actually decent, with its sausages, eggs, and toast

malaysian and singaporean food courts are some of the best ones i've eaten at by far, but we found authentic red curry and roti canai near harbour city to stave off our hunger

white juicy peaches which they sell on the street like bananas...

roast goose and sticky rice in tofu skin at legendary yung kee, which we chanced upon and where we just happened to get a table after a half hour wait...

scallop and spinach dumplings, so well crafted that each bite never falls apart until safely nestled in your mouthstrawberry sorbet and stracciatella gelato at da dolce, perfectly sweetened and made fresh everyday...plunked into cups with a heavy hand amidst flavors like korean pomelo, ginger, banana hazelnut, and sottobosco.

next time i will blog more about this travel, just swamped with tons of workloads (siningit lang ang blogging):D

harry potter and the deathly hollows

at last, i find time to read the last series of harry potter books i bought in changi last july, why it took me that long before i start reading? memory loss - forgot where i exactly put this book - tsk tsk tsk...

so i finished "harry potter and the deathly hollows" last night, and all i have to say is, the book truly lives up to its title. before reading the book, i avoided going on line, promised not to read blogs about it, thus sticking to my vow avoiding the likelihood to read any spoilers.

after dinner, i plunged straight on, so i could finish the saga and find out if harry would get to the other horcruxes. there were times when i sat up on my bed, eyes widened with shock, fingers gripping the book tightly; other times, i had to grab end of my pillow to dab the corners of my eyes.

i couldn't decide whether i wanted to read it slowly, or read it quickly so i could get to the ending ( i do not understand why anyone would want to read the ending first). on one hand, i had the final piece of the harry potter mystery, and on the other hand, i knew that once i finished the book, there would nothing after it any more.

it was still fresh in my mind the first time i came across with harry potter - it was one boring afternoon here at work, one of my peer let me borrowed her copy of "harry potter and the sorcerer's stone" that's when i met the durleys of number four privet drive.

the next seven years were spent waiting for the ending of the story.

now, my sister's reading the book and i'm still stunned. long after i finished book 7, i was still staring blankly and thinking about the sudden turnarounds, the explained mysteries, and well, the deaths. harry potter isn't the best-written series in the world, and there are a lot of plot holse and all too-convenient escape hatches, but it was a series that i sort of grew up with and anticipated for seven years-litlle pieces of the story were fed to readers every two or three years, and we devoured each piece hungrily. am still a fan and the sorting hat said i belong to ravenclaw.

it's all over now, and i can't help but feel a little sad that there's nothing more to look forward to. hope there's more...

intrams

today is baby bear school intrams, i bought her blue shirt as uniform on their sportsfest, after 3 days of exams, at last, baby bear can have a day off on academics - she's too excited this morning as she told me she's one of the players for outdoor games like sack race, tug of war and soccer, sana lang wag umulan. it's been raining since monday.

ang laki na ni baby bear - she's becoming more of his father, kutis, mannerism, boses, miniature ni papa bear. she amazes us everyday, dami na niyang kayang gawin at 5, she can wear her own clothes, tie her shoe, comb her hair, read and write up to 4-5 syllables, count up to 100, recite poem on stage without fear,sing and dance, construct sentences in english, brush her teeth, wash her face, recite school prayers and a lot more. very independent, pero super lambing. we're proud of you anak!

exam week

our weekend was spent in making reviewer for baby bear - this week is their exam week - long departmental test. na pressure ko ata masyado si baby bear sa pag rereview, di kami halos lumabas nong weekend - feeling ko kukuha ng board exam he he he.

sana lahat ng exams niya pasado nung last quarter 2 out of 5 exams niya ang perfect, ngayon we raised the bar sana 3 exams na yung perfect niya (high expectations ba? - tsk tsk, hirap maging bata ngayon, bukod sa maaga ipinapasok sa school, advance pa yung lesson, imagine 5 years old pa lang siya, yung math niya up to 100 na yung sequence number, from least to greatest and vice versa, comparing numbers < > and =, skipping numbers by 5's and by 10's).

di bale this weekend me get away special kami - HK Disney??? yipeee....

kokey mania

kokey an alien from planet yekok was the only tagalog sitcom baby bear loves watching. last sat kokey was here in sm sta rosa, i promised baby bear that we'll watch him then, i wasn't expecting that the crowd will be big, all i thought it was just a kid's show, it proved me wrong, i under estimated kokey's charisma with the household - he has lot's of fans who patiently waited him including us even though he came 1 hour late.

it was fun, baby bear had a photo with kokey, hanging in our wall, 8x10 size, she requested it to be print and framed right after the show. looking at the picture, am trying to figure out if the dagul was "kokey" sa bigat at init ng costume, normal kids can't stand that. sabi din ni baby bear, when she was sitting at kokey's lap, amoy sigarilyo daw. so i was quite sure he could be 'dagul". kayo anong guess ninyo? :D

my boss says" am proud of you"

i'd like to blog about my boss - he's so cool and we treat each other as one family though sometimes me moods din siya at importante sa kanya ang integrity. isa lang ang medyo ayaw ko sa kanya, and hopefully it won't happen to me - pag nakaron siya ng bad impression sa staff niya, it will be forever that way - you will never recover. it happened to one of my colleagues, until now, she can't erase that impression, although she's trying very hard, her effort just gone unnoticed.

last friday oct 5, i had this project presentation to the big boss (boss ng boss ko), it was supposedly a 2:1 meeting, but he intentionally declined for him not to overshadow me. good thing, presentation went well, and after that i received email from my boss saying that " am proud of you" naks, indirectly he's telling me that i'm good and he's impressed. sana lang, i can hold on to this as long as i'm here.

siyempre pa i've forwarded the email to my hubby - he replied back "baby bear and I are also proud of you" wow, sarap ng feeling - nasa cloud nine ako. that was i ended the workweek. today is also end of workweek as tomorrow is holiday, am looking forward for a loong and happy weekend.

you're on the spot

this was the title of the personalized hand made card from my sister, it was supposedly her b-day gift for me, she put it in my kikay box which i seldom used so i wasn't able to see the bday card on time, but anyhow the message touched my heart, it was so sincere when she wrote that though i wasn't perfect to others, i'm still perfect for her and i'm the best "ATE" in the world. naiyak naman ako dun.

naalala ko tuloy nung mga bata pa kami, we weren't that close as siblings, we have so much differences, but when i got married and left home, we missed each other, more so when i got pregnant she promised to take care of my baby, and so she did. since then, we developed this strong friendship within us - i love my sister so dearly.

di ko pa pala na i blog surprise nila sa akin, when we got home from work nung b-day ko. dati rati malayo pa kami sa bahay, nag-aabang na yung pamangkin ko sa labas para magbukas ng gate - pero that time, nagtaka kami kasi pati ilaw nakasara, as if para kaming naputulan ng kuryente - i'm so excited pa naman to come home kasi we have bought chocolate mouse cake from red ribbon, tapos mukhang walang tao sa bahay? when we door bell, ayun na, bumukas ang ilaw mukhang me party sa bahay, me decoration, me music pa and to top it all, me ginawa silang tarpulin na me dedication nilang lahat, my 2 nephews, my sister, my helper, and of course my baby bear, pati si papa bear na surpresa din, kaya pala humingi daw ng pera si baby bear that morning yun pala pambili nila ng decoration - it was the most unforgettable bday parties i had, on their own simple way, na express nila sa akin how i was loved. thanks sis, alam ko idea mo lahat ito. utang muna lahat ng photos di ko pa na download sa pc ko. basta alam ko, ako ang reyna ng gabing yun he he he.

my birth anniversary

right way of greeting daw is "happy birth anniversary" since once lang tayo pinanganak but we are celebrating it as an anniversary yearly just like wedding, etc.. ito ang thoughts for the day i learned from a friend - she's quite right. i'm proud that i reached this stage in my life healthy and vibrant with my family and friends intact to love me unconditionally. i thanked God for all the years that i have, giving me all the blessings and guidance that made my life so beautiful all these years.

i'm entitled to avail of b-day leave today, but i opt not to because i was already OOP last week due to sore eyes; instead i had an early celebration last oct 1 - since i'm telecomuting every monday, i took time to cook some of my specialties (naks! feeling chef as if andami ko namang niluto he he he).

while we are buying some stuff at the grocery, baby bear insisted on buying a bday card for me, of course i was the one who paid for it - but i was so touched with her gesture, kanina while i'm preparing for work, she woke up very early and handed me the card with her handwritten message on it - ano pa eh di napaiyak naman ako, kaya pala ayaw niya akong papasukin sa study room niya last night she pretended she was doing her homework, iyun pala sinusulatan niya yung card - would you believe, no one has taught her what to write. among the gifts i received today - this is the most priceless!(utang muna yung picture ng card, pi-picturan ko pa mamaya). Thanks baby bear, you make me feel really special today, and i'm thankful too that God has given you to us.

eto nga pala yung mga niluto ko, i inherited my skills from my mom, but only discovered it when i got married and started cooking for my hubby.

spaghetti meatballs for the kids


vermicelli noodles for our neighboors




chicken inasal ala ysabella

our weekend getaway

i'm back again to the office - after a week of isolation, normal na uli ang buhay ko yehey...

tomorrow is my birthday - i'm thankful that i reach this age (38) with so much blessings and still counting.

last weekend we had a blast ; saturday we went to a b-day/reunion party of my old friend Red in Cavite City, it was nice seing him again after 6 years of staying in the US at last they find time to visit PH and celebrate his kid's 4th b-day here, after so much kumustahan and kwentuhan while we feasted with lechon de leche, noodles and other pinoy foods, he handed me over his pasalubong - a XOXO wallet. thanks. (thoughtful talaga tong friend ko na ito) sa lahat ng biz travel niya while he was still my officemate, lagi yung may pasalubong for me and Grace. (thanks Red and i'm looking forward to see you again soon - sana ako naman ang nasa US he he he)

from Red's party, we headed to my father's house to greet him happy birthday - 65 yo na ang tatay and he is still healthy, i'm wishing him more b-days to come. I'm praying that he will stay healthy and happy. we don't have any gifts for him so we just give him money for him to buy what he wants - actually alam kong hindi naman yun bibili, ibibigay niya lang yun sa mga apo niya, i'm sure of that. medyo gabi na, so di na kami nag celebrate, sabi ng sis ko they had a simple dinner, di na kami nahintay kasi nahirapan kaming umalis agad sa party ni red. they will have extended celebration the following day (Sunday)

sunday naman, Papa Bear visited his father at the UST hospital - he was there since last week, actually it was a recurring confinement - doctors are having a hard time detecting his real ailment - prostate ata i suspect.

Papa Bear just dropped us at MOA - since kids are not allowed to stay at the hospital so we just window shop and play at MOA. we had a good time at MOA, i saw kipling bag - really wanted to buy it as a gift for myself pero pinigil ko ang impulse ko, mas maraming priority dapat paggamitan ng pera kesa sa bag so next time na lang, instead we end up buying a pair of havaianas for me and baby bear. we ate lunch at max blue wave and dinner at MOA foodcourt. our initial plan is to attend mass at Holy Cross Parish of Jesus and Mary across MOA, kaso lang sobrang lakas ng ulan dahil sa bagyong Hannah, di kami makalabas na mag-ina, walking distance lang sana - so di na kami natuloy. sayang don kami lagi sumisimba pag may special occasion. next time na lang.

here's the bag in my "wishlist"


we end up buying this for baby bear - mine is havaianas high

sore eyes

friday sept 21 - i came to the office but was immediately sent home due to swollen left eye - suspected conjunctivitis as per prognosis of our nurse - since it's contagious, i have to be away from anyone else - kaya eto i have the luxury of working from home - buti na lang di nahawa sa akin ang mag ama ko. i'm still recuperating as of today, both eyes have now been infected - thanks to my medicine 'tobradex" suspension - i still have a normal vision - though sometime it's hazy.

working from home means more bonding time with baby bear - pansin ko araw araw masaya siya. how i wish ganito na lang palagi. kung pwede lang no? kaso lang mahirap din pag 1 lang earner sa family - we might not afford to help our extended families. masarap din ang tumulong.

we were thankful on what we have, God is so merciful that He's giving us what we need, sometimes sobra pa.

back to the office

i'm back since monday from a week leave, i got flu with cough and cold. now that i'm back, tons of loads were piled up to my desk, buti na lang mabait boss ko, di niya ako pini pressure to speed up takot sigurong mabinat ako at mag absent uli he he he

sept will be over, oct na yehey, birthday ko na - i have lots' of reunions to attend to from sept 30, oct 9 and Nov 10, some of my dear friends overseas will be in town these dates, seems that we will celebrate early christmas, i'm looking forward to it, tagal ko na silang di nakikita, some of them has been away for over 7 years - though we communicate on line, iba pa rin yung face to face, chikahan at tawanan. buti na lang with these dates wala akong biz trip - ayos!

last week, we bought a new toy (bike) for baby bear as recognition for her outstanding grades, gulat ako, parang lalaki kung mag bike. sa hapon lang namin siya pinapa bike around sa subdivision namin, of course kasama ako at si papa bear, exercise din namin yung brisk walking after office hour at siyempre pa bonding time naming tatlo. won't allow her to bike alone, lalo na sa panahon ngayon, daming nawawalang bata - kakatakot ang mga news. paranoid na naman ako, actually di ko siya pinayagan to join her field trip kasi parents are not allowed to join, wag na lang, di ako confident sa teacher niya na kaya i manage ang 26 kids all at the same time lalo na nasa ibang lugar.

by the way, masaya ako sa takbo ng career ko, God has given me so much blessings na feeling ko i'm not deserving to receive those - ok ang working sched ko, i can work from home twice per week and at the same time nakakasama ko si baby bear buong maghapon, helping her do her homework and have lunch together. sana laging ganito...

im sick again

i'm not feeling well today, due to severe cough and cold maybe because of the weather, it was always like this since last week, mainit maghapon tapos uulan sa gabi. i filed a leave for tomorrow, mukhang i can't make it even if i work from home - i'm craving for a long hours of sleep, haven't done that since i've started with my vf project - have to rush things hu hu hu. eto na naman ako, mahusay sa cramming. ewan ko ba i was like this since i was in grade school, ideas are overflowing when i'm pressured.

but when it comes to decision making whether it's personal or work related, i like to mull over things, looking at all available options before coming into a decision, but i can make quick decision and stick to it as long as i am well informed and ready to take the risk.

3 months na pala akong nag ba-blog, how time flies, medyo unti unti ko ng nakakasanayan ang pag e-express ng buhay ko be it in english or tagalog, at masarap pala ang feeling lalo na pag binabalikan ko ang mga postings ko, salamat uli kay lit coo na nag expose sa akin sa blogging world, at nakilala ko rin si ela, who happens to be a former employee dito sa company namin - it was nice meeting people on line and reading other's blogs, dami kong napupulot na magandang bagay sa kanila, how are they sharing their thoughts and lives to other people. kaka inspired.

tons of loads

it's been a week since my last posting, grabe i'm so swamped with tons of tons of loads, kakapagod, mentally, physically, emotionally. hirap ng empleyado no? my boss is here for our face to face meeting, it means that i'll be more busy in the coming weeks - mas madaming meeting mas maraming AR's.

on the brighter side, i will have my increase effective oct 1, pero sabi nga ni spiderman, "great powers comes with great responsibility" kaya ayan, i have to roll my sleeves again and keep moving. good thing din stocks are getting high, at least i can now sell some of my old stocks, hopefully i can buy something for myself next month kasi birthday ko naman. among my wishlists are new handphone sony ericsson P1i and lacoste tote bag (pink) i saw at the mall of asia. minsan lang akong gumasta for myself (he he he) mag justified ba.

nga pala, we will be at HK next month end of the month hope we can drop by at HK Disney, pero as per feedback, mas maganda pa rin ang Tokyo Disney. sana me extra money kami that time, (shopping spree na naman)

life's at work

kanina, medyo hindi ako kinausap ng isang officemate ko, maybe because i hurt him when i gave my feedback about the lay out of our thematic presentation, sometimes, you didn't like to give strong message but you were forced to do so - this is to improve your team's performance. hirap din talaga to deal with people, you can't please everybody. sometimes di mo maiwasan maging bad. but before 4pm today, i send him email, just to close the gap, there maybe some disconnect somewhere, but it's good that he accepts my apology " trabaho lang, walang personalan" at least i can have a good night sleep later.

departmental test

i was proud sa result ng exam ni baby bear, despite of having a flu last week, she made it to the top, wow, galeng. 2 out of 5 exams are perfect, the rest are 94, 92, and 91. on the other hand, she did not make it on the speech contest, mahina daw ang boses niya, nakausap ko yung teacher niya kanina, but i'm still proud, siyempre achievement pa rin yung pag-akyat niya sa stage without her parent's at the front. more to go baby! we are so proud of you.

again, she deserve a recognition, pat on the back and a cup of ice cream will do. we love you baby bear!

battle of the tongues

baby bear is currently performing on the stage, parents are not allowed to see the contest, that's why im here at the office blogging - ninenerbyos ako eh. sana ma perform ng anak ko yung piece niya and hopefully wala siyang stage fright. kahit di siya manalo, yung umakyat siya sa stage at mag perform in front of everybody, for me winner na rin siya. i'm so proud of you anak! this is one great milestone for her, she's only 5 years old and yet sumasali na siya sa mga contest sa school, ako ata at that age, eh walang kamuwang muwang, iba na rin ang mga bata ngayon, palibhasa maaga sila ipinasok sa school yung social skills and interactions with their peers maagang na develop, which they can use when they grow up, they will likely to have high self esteem.

baby bear is our source of joy, next to God, we were so blessed to have such a wonderful kid - there are times that i and papa bear had misunderstanding, it was baby bear who makes our day complete.

flu

halos 1 week din nagkasakit si baby bear, thank God maayos na pakiramdam niya today. pabago bago kasi ang panahon dito, mainit sa umaga tapos uulan sa hapon at gabi, actually ako naman ngayon, ang sama ng ubo ko, salamat din at friday na, rest day ko na bukas yehey. two days din akong leave, pagpasok ko tambak na naman, the project i thought was completed already turned out to have jammed in my absence - kaasar, walang nag monitor.

on the other hand, minsan di ko rin masisi team mates ko kung mawalan na sila ng passion to give their best shot, parang wala na kasi kaming job security dito, any moment, pwede mapasama sa retrenchment. sa sept 30, half of my team mates are leaving due to cost cutting, yung mga maiiwan kawawa rin dahil mag aabsorb ng work load ng aalis. it's hard to deal with uncertainties - emotionally stressed ang mga empleyado.

dream car

here is 'WOP" our old car, we cried when we let go of her, 5 years din namin siyang kasama
and here is "ZILVESTER" our new car, parang magkamukha naman sila pati kulay, though medyo high end nga lang tong si zilvester dahil automatic na, hirap ng manual sa traffic.

meet my "dream car" next year akin ka na he he he (wish ko lang)

school play

meet my baby bear - she played a doctor role last week, ang cute.

as usual proud stage mom na naman ako.

smart bro

finally, long wait is over, we have internet connection na at home, this has been my wish since we moved in here in laguna last april, pldt wi-fi connection here is so slow, thanks to smart bro, i can now log in at home.

yehey - my 2 days telecomuting in a week is no longer a dream, WLE na talaga.

speech contest

got a message from her teacher that baby bear is joining the speech contest on August 27, so happy that my little princess is now having an exposure. she's quite good in reciting a poem and speaking in english - she has been exposed to different races in her previous schools and english is their medium so it won't be hard for her to memorize her piece.

go go go baby bear - stage mom na naman ako nito, i'm so proud of you.

i'm back

it's been a while since my last posting - my pc crashed, had to recover my files. both baby bear and papa bear are happy with my pasalubong - though credit card billings are now filing up, makita ko lang silang masaya, happy na rin ako.

happy birhday baby bear

today is baby bear's 5th b-day, am still here in MY, later,I'll be flying to SG for a night stay. i went home late last night due to merkeda sale here at prangin mall, i've got best buy notebook for papa bear, it's intel core duo, wireless ready etc..etc.. am currently using it, road test ika nga.

excited na ako to see them, i miss them so much, kanina when i greeted baby bear, i sang for her kahit na bedroom voice pa ako he he he.

mission accomplish na ako kay papa bear, PSP na lang for baby, sana i can find best deal today.

happy b-day anak, wishing you more b-days to come, good health and also good life to live. may our dear Lord bless you with so much love and protection.

we love you so dearly!

upgraded room at last

finally, i had a good night sleep, my room was upgraded to executive suite with a larger bed and space as compensation for all the inconveniences i had with northam hotel. last night i went shopping, really wanted to buy that bag i saw at bonia store in gurney plaza, but PSP is my priority more than anything else- that would be my b-day gift for baby bear as promised.

had a sumptous dinner too - chicken grilled into perfection by peri peri and fresco salad with balsamic vinegar and olive oil.

later, will try to window shop and look out for PSP best buy, guess MY sale starts today.

i called up baby bear this morning, i missed her so much.

hotel disaster

after a day's hard work at the office, i went back to my hotel, disaster strikes again, i was transferred to another room from 31st floor, to 27th, now I'm on 26th floor, the toilet is licking and flush is not working - waahh... when this will end???

i talked to the hotel manager, they promised to upgrade my room in exchange of all the inconvenience they caused me - later today, I'll be transferring again, hope this time will be a lot better.

guess, i need a massage tonight.

i miss my family so much.

alone in a foreign land

yesterday was the bumpiest flight I ever had, thanks to the medicine I took before the flight, I didn't throw up. What a flight! When I check in to my hotel, it was worst - they keep changing my room from one floor to the other - because of so many reasons e.g poor water supply, defective sliding door, etc... etc.. The task of packing and unpacking my things is eating up my energy, I didn't have a good night sleep last night, whew... To make matter worst, my notebook broke down today, whah... what a day!

everything is ready

got my e ticket and confirmed seats for sunday's travel, i hope everything will run smoothly including the weather. hopefully talaga i can buy papa bear's notebook (best buy sana) and baby bear's PSP if my time and money permits.

until then...

usapang bata

Kahapon ganito usapan namin ni baby bear:

Baby bear: (rushing from the gate) mommy, mommy, nag election of officers kami sa school today
Honey bear : talaga, eh ano ka?
Baby bear: JANITOR
Honey bear : huh? muntik na ako malaglag sa sofa - ask ko siya eh bakit yun naman pinili mo
Baby bear: eh kasi sabi ni Teacher, who wants to volunteer ? I raised my hands, kasi ako naman lagi naglilinis ng ilalim ng desk ko eh.

ha ha ha, ang bata talaga.

and the winner is...

tadah....yehey, we won the q2 qra with cash prize of $100 each and plaque, gosh, hirap talaga kumita ng pera, naka 3 revision yung write up ko he he he, ito talaga ang matatawag na "hard earned cash". pandagdag din ito sa pambili ng PSP ni baby bear.

qra deliveration today

every quarter me recognition entry kami dito sa company, any project whether group or individual pwede inominate for recognition, pag nanalo, me plaque at cash. later today, i'll be presenting our group's project for q2, sana manalo kami, pls...

last night ko lang tinapos ang write up, eto na nman ako, free flowing ang ideas sa akin pag me time pressure eh, sumali kaya ako sa brain challenge dito sa company namin he he he.

ang kwento ng mga bagay-bagay at pangyayari sa buhay ko

last week ko pa sana gustong sumagot sa survey na ito, i got this from litcoo and ela, sarap sumagot...

1. anong kwento ng pangalan mo?
wala naman masyadong significant on my name, it's a typical name, my mom got this from an old actress in the phils, wala lang. i'm supposed to have a 3 names, uso na rin pala nong 70's ang name combination - it's shd have ma. cecillia before my real name, kuha to sa lola ko sa mother side, however nung tinanong na ng doctor ang tatay ko kung anong ilalagay na name sa birth certificate ko, he forgot to mention ma. cecillia, he only remembers my mom's fav actress name kaya ganun ang naging name ko. my mom kasi was sleeping after she gave birth to me, she udergone CS section and she was sleeping for more than 24 hours daw.

2. anong kwento ng last b-day mo?
my last b-day was a memorable one, we had dinner with candle light not because we wanted a romantic ambiance but because of brown out. there was no electricity all over the place brought about by typhoon milenyo that hits manila on sept 29, my bday is oct 3, we suffered 2 long weeks w/out electricity and water supply, back to old days kami, yung tipo bang you need to pile a long line makakuha lang ng tubig sa poso. kahit brown out nag celebrate pa rin kami, we cooked spag and chicken. papa bear bought a red ribbon cake, masaya pa rin, at least wala namang na damage sa property namin except yung 1 flowerhorn namin na namatay. yung ibang lugar halos naubos ang gamit nila dahil sa baha.

3. anong kwento ng 1st lovelife mo?
i was 19 when i had my 1st bf, actually yung husband ko pang second ko siya, medyo matipid ang lovelife ko. 7 years kaming naging steady nung 1st bf ko, i thought siya na talaga, his parents and other sibling are living in the US when we were still in college, his parents are sending us money in US$ for our savings, we had joint accounts, we have lots of "conjugal property" that they bought for us including real estate in cavite. but just like any other relationships, sinubok kami ng panahon. i was in japan when he broke up with me (i was with lit coo and some other friends during that time) buti na lang andun sila to comfort me, kundi baka kung ano na nagawa ko. ganun pala pag broken hearted ka, sobrang vulnerable, i cried the whole night, one of my guy close friend, di niya ako iniwan, he went with me outside (in the middle of the night with snow falling on our heads) just to shout and release my anger. when we got back to manila, i talked to him, hupa na yung galit ko, I left all the money and property to him, after all it was his parents money not ours.

4. anong kwento ng lovelife mo ngayon?
i'm still mending my broken heart when i met papa bear, he was a product engineer in my former company prior joining my current company. we started as friends, we always go out yun pala date na yun sa kanya, after 1 1/2 years we got married, ayoko ng patagalin, na trauma ako sa long engagement eh. happy naman ako ngayon, i was blessed with a good man, a good provider and a very lovely daughter (siyempre anak ko eh). we are happily married and living here in sta rosa laguna.

5. anong kwento ng cellphone mo?
my cellphone is n70, last year ko lang ito binili, i was with jojo in SG when i saw that phone, ayun na pag-uwi ko tamang tama, bonus time dito, i bought that as a gift for myself.

6. anong kwento ng computer mo?
i'm using the one provided by the company, wala ako plano to buy one for myself, pati yung pc sa bahay, provided din yun ng company namin, pina upgrade ko lang yung memory at processor, gumagana pa naman. kaso si papa bear nangungulit ng magkaron ng laptop baka mapabili ako next week, hopefully...

7. anong kwento ng kuwarto mo?
we just moved in here last april 6, medyo magulo pa rin ang kwarto namin, dahil yung ibang gamit eh nakasiksik pa rin sa kwarto, some are still in the boxes pa, wala akong time mag unpack, sobrang daming work dito sa office, same with papa bear. sana next month, maging maayos na lahat ng gamit namin.

8. anong kwento mo last christmas?
normally pag christmas, nagluluto lang kami sa bahay, tapos sa tatay ko kami nag cecelebrate para masaya at marami, magugulo kasi ang mga nephews ko dun, dalawa lang kaming magkapatid tapos ang father ko naman, kasama nila sa bahay, so kami na lang pumupunta sa kanila for gift givings, masaya kasi may mga games kami para sa mga bata, tapos pati neighboors nag jo join sa amin. last new year, sa hospital kami nag celebrate, si baby bear kasi tinamaan ng UTI at amoebiasis, na confined from Dec 29 to Jan 3.

9. anong kwento mo last valentines day?
si papa bear ata ang taong walang romance sa katawan, nag dinner lang kami with baby bear sa alabang ATC, dad's saisaki, kasi alam niyang i love japanesse food, yun lang walang flowers at chocolates diabetic daw ako at flowers na ang name ko he he he.

10. anong kwento ng chinelas mo ngayon?
dito sa office wala kaming uniform, anything goes ika nga. friday naman today so i'm wearing havaianas -typical na chinelas ang dating, over pricing itong chinelas na ito dito sa pinas, di ako bumili nito gift lang to ng friend ko na galing london. thanks ellen!

11. anong kwento ng una mong makita ang crush mo?
yung mga crushes ko kasi nung bata, puro artista sa "that's entertainment" gaya ni aga muhlach at jojo alejar. pero yung common tao na crush ko eh kaklase ko nung grade 6 ako, nahiya ako ng todo dun halos ayaw kong pumasok sa school kasi ba naman tong isang classmate namin pina sulat ako sa slumbook niya, nong sagutan ko who is your crush, nilagay ko initial ng classmate namin na crush ko nga, tapos binuo ba naman niya yung initials at pinabasa sa crush ko, whuahh, kahiya talaga. btw, yung crush ko na yun, he's successfully living now in US, isa siya sa mga graphic artist ng fixar, siya ang gumawa ng finding nemo, napansin ninyo na ba yung aquarium dun na may bahay kubo siya gumawa non galing! i've seen him last year dec 6, meron kaming class reunion after 15 years - siyempre iba na ang feeling di na ako nahihiya sa kanya. na meet na rin niya si papa bear nagkakwentuhan na ang aming mga pamilya.

12. anong kwento syo ng parents mo about santa claus?
typical na kwento ng mga magulang na every year kailangan na mabait ka para meron kang gift sa christmas eve. pinapatulog kami ng maaga para gisingin na lang uli pagdating ng 12mn, tapos unahan kami ng kapatid kong mag check kung meron kaming gifts sa christmas tree, taka nga ako nun pano nalalaman ni santa claus kung ano ang mga wish list namin, kasi yun ang narereceive namin. grade 6 na ata ako ng malaman ko na parents ko rin pala si santa. di ko na matandaan pano nila inamin sa aming magkapatid.

13. anong kwento tungkol sa inyo ng bestfriend mo?
i never had a bestfriend, lumaki kasi ako na i'm always with a group of friends, pero ngayon i can consider my sister as my bestfriend, hirap at ginhawa magkaramay kami eh.

14. anong kwento ng best movie na pinanood mo?
harry potter series siyempre, am an avid harry potter fan, lahat ng books at vcd's meron ako. di na muna ako magkukuwento about the movie kasi showing pa.

15. anong kwento ng last time na umiyak ka?
di ko na maalala eh...

16. anong kwento ng latest work mo?
i'm also from materials group when i was in my previous work, buyer ako dun, us owned company siya for electronics, kaso nagsara nong 2002, pero i was already here na sa bago kong work, si papa bear ang inabot ng closure meron din siyang nakuhang package pero it took him 6 months bago siya nagkawork uli, medyo na hurt ang ego niya nun, he was the one taking care of our baby while I'm at the office, he's doing all the domestic chores kasi di na muna kami kumuha ng helper to save cost.

17. anong kwento ng huli mong bakasyon?
we were supposed to be in SG last May, it was a planned vacation, we availed of budget airlines promo, however papa bear got an offshore assignment for a month in china, so di na kami tumuloy. Instead he attended na lang his reunion sa bicol when he got home tapos, nag CWC Camsur na lang kami, timely naman kasi me tournament for Wakeboarding as celebration for their"kaugma festival" daming artista nag join, kita ko nga si Piolo Pascual, Angelu at Jericho Rosales ng personal. Msaya pa din ang bakasyon at we pampered ourselved for a whole body spa and massage sarap!!!

18. anong kwento ng suot mo ngayon?
nothing significant, naka jeans at blouse lang ako dahil friday na, naka chinelas pa nga eh...

19. anong kwento ng kotse mo?
ah ito madaming kwento - we bought zilverster last feb 8 this year, we're supposed not to let go of wop (our old 2000 honda city model 1.5 manual) kasi hard earned money namin binili dun, kaso lang mahal na din mag maintain ng car pag 5 years na, so we decided to got a new car- same brand at 1.5 engine din medyo high end nga lang matic na at 2007 model. after a month lang nasagi si papa bear ng vios na blue ayun, me gasgas agad si zilverster, nagkataon pa empleyado ng cafeteria namin ang me ari ng car, sinagot naman nila lahat, small world di ba?

20. anong kwento ang gagawin mo pagkatapos mo sagot sa survey?
ano pa back to work at aasikasuhin ko pa yung itinerary ko for next week.

sa susunod po uli!!!

shop till you drop

hay,, am excited on my trip next week, 1st time ko na excite after my _th trip to Penang, kasi aabutan ko ang great sg sale yehey!!! si papa bear panay ang tingin sa internet ng notebooks, mukhang di ko na mapipigil to, he really needs this new toy, hay naku boys are boys, ang mamahal ng trip nila, kundi car, electronics gadget. lagot and visa femme ko nito. nyws, minsan lang naman ako mahilingan ni papa bear, kaso yung minsan mapapasubo ako sa presyo, sumabay pa ang recognition token for baby bear PSP naman. Anyway, tipid naman ako sa accomodation, my former colleague is now happily settled in SG, she promised to tour me around, and of course to shop till we drop. Litcoo, I hope to see you too - before I go back to manila on July 29.

until then..

exam week

Last week was baby bear's exam week, ako ang na stress sa kaka review, feeling ko di niya inaabsorb yung review namin, pero when I checked all the exam results, perfect lahat, galing! Because of this, she deserves a gift, I asked what she wants, tech savy na rin ang mga bata, sabihin ba naman sa akin sony PSP, lagot! Lit Coo, I need your help, hanapan ninyo naman ako ng sale sa SG pagpunta ko diyan sa July 28 please.... b-day gift ko na rin yun sa kanya, she's turning 5 on that day. medyo guilty pa rin ako, she's supposed to have b-day party at home, but since I'm on biz trip, push out na lang to Aug 4.

hay....

school woes

I've noticed that baby bear has this crying moods before she goes to school, it's been 5 days already. How ironic because it's been 3 weeks since the school opening, why does all of sudden she has this mood, wherein the 1st 2 weeks she has been very excited going to school. I'm planning to meet her teacher tomorrow and discuss her new behavior - it might be someone has bullied her - wag naman sana. Transferee lang ang baby ko, and she still building up relationship with her classmates.

I hope everything will be fine, whatever it is that is bothering her, I hope she will overcome it. She's good pa naman in academic, I've seen her quizes - perfect lahat, sna lang her new experiences will not have direct impact on her learning skills.

We love you baby - you know we'll do everything to protect you.

boss is a boss

I'm a bit dissapointed today, last night I worked till 12 just to finish my presentation materials supposedly for discussion with my boss today, however though my boss sent a last minute cancellattion, whoaaah! Very inspired pa naman ako to finish that, di na ako nag dinner, ang aga ko sa office kanina, excited ako to discuss with him what I have written, tapos di lang pala matutuloy. Yung adrenaline ko parang nabuhusan ng malamig na tubig.

i'd been tagged by Lit Coo

I must post the rules, 7 random things about me and then tag others to do the same. Sound fair enough right? These are the rules...each player starts with 7 random facts about themselves and post the rules as well. At the end of their blog list 7 people you are tagging. Let them know that they are tagged by leaving them a comment.

So here it is:

1. I'm not good at numbers, but ironically I took up Chemical Engineering and successfully passed the board exam

2. I don't eat pork sinigang

3. My routine before I left my workplace is to check my cabinet if it's lock at least 10 times (sounds weird)

4. My brain works well if I'm pressured or deadline is TODAY.

5. My shoe size is 7, after giving birth it's now 8 (take note I only have 1 child at the moment)

6. I only learned how to cook when I got married - good thing my husband is a good cook.

7. I am an impulsive buyer - will buy stuff I like no matter how costly it is.

and now I'm tagging Caren, Cha, Beatriz, Lulu, Blade, Ajana, Pretty in pink

father's day

Advance kong binisita ang father ko last Sat, kasi yung Sunday is for Papa bear. Masarap din pala yung minsan lang kayo magkita, ramdam na ramdam ko na mahal ako ng tatay, we had our lunch in our ancestral home, inihaw na bangus, adobong pusit at pinakbet, at ice cream for desert, wow sarap. After lunch bonding time, kwentuhan,(sana madalas kaming ganito) Ang hirap din pala ng malayo ka sa magulang, ayaw din kasi ni Tatay na tumira sa amin kasi nga ayaw niyang iwan ang old house namin, buti na lang me boarders kami don, kahit pano me tumitingin sa kanya, kasi my sister and my nephews are living with us, taking care of my baby bear, every weekend lang sila bumabalik kay tatay.

Thank you tay - mahal namin kayo!

On Papa Bear - thanks for being a good father and provider to us, you are my source of strenght whenever I'm down, I hope you also feel the same way for me. We love you so much!

random thoughts

kahapon was my mom's 5th year death anniv, i worked from home and cooked pancit, lighted a candle and offer a prayer - how time flies, 5 years na pala namin siyang hindi kasama. medyo senti mood ako after i published my first 2 postings, napapaisip na naman ako ng kung ano ano. wala lang na mi miss ko lang ang nanay ko. Sa sat, dadalaw ako sa grave niya, malayo na kasi kami sa hometown namin.

si papa bear naman, medyo dissappointed siya sa career niya, june 12 na announce yung bago nilang org chart, napunta na siya sa project based instead of managing 50 plus staff, now individual contributor na lang. di ko alam yung reason why this had happened, sabi ko na lang sa kanya see the brighter side of the coin, at least ngayon, di na niya kailangang makisama with 50 different personalities, people are people, they have different behaviors at di na rin mamumurublema sa mga pala absent na staff niya. feeling ko na pulitika siya kasi yung bago nilang managing director kumpare nung na appoint na papalit sa pwesto niya. sabi ko nalang at least di nman babawasan ang salary niya.

customized na

At last customized na itong blogsite ko, at masaya ako sa output ko. I'm expecting further improvement as I became familiar with the settings.

Pansin ko since this is my first time, naubos ko ang oras ko dito, kakahiya naman kasi hindi ko pa rest day, I still have loads of work to do, na excite lang kasi ako. Thanks to Lit Coo, dahil sa kakabasa ko ng postings niya, na inspire tuloy ako to make one for myself. Really true, nakaka alis nga ng stress, the more I express myself/thoughts in writing, the more I feel better.

Sige po until then...

blogger's intro

Hello po, 1st time ko mag create ng blog, pasensya na rin kung hindi pa customized ang settings, including fonts and color, inaaral ko pa ito. Ako nga pala si Honey Bear, my hubby is Papa Bear and we have 1 kid si Baby bear, obvious ba pamilya bear kami he he he.

Mahilig akong mag keep ng journal about what's happening in my life, pero dahil busy at medyo hindi na ako sanay mag hand write parang mas consistent kung on line. Yung diary ko this 2007, halos 3 months lang akong consistent magsulat, kasi papangit ng papangit yung sulat, talo pa ang sulat doctor.

I remember yung prof ko sa leadership class sa Ateneo, he talks about the importance of keeping journals - ito daw ang makakapagsabi if you have some patterns in your life and know what is your purpose dito sa mundo.

Sige until next posting.

blogger

Dati taga basa lang ako ng blog ng iba, pang alis ng stress, nakakatulong din lalo na pag me sense yung mga nababasa mo about reality of life, ngayon I decided to make one for myself para ma express ko din ang totoo kong pagkatao. Pasensya na at hindi pa masyadong organize itong blog ko, medyo kinakapa ko pa how it works.